First Post!

I am going to do it this time! I NEED to do it.  I need to lose the weight!


My name is Carolyn and I am creating this blog to hopefully help motivate myself to lose weight.  I have gone on and off for years trying to lose it and usually give up within the first week.  I need to just stick with it, because I've gotten too big.


Ever since elementary school, I've always been overweight.  I was never hugely overweight or obese, but it was enough for me to worry about it.  I am a shy person to begin with, and this just made things even harder for me.  Always feeling a bit self concious about my looks. I've never walked out of a store thinking, "wow these jeans look great on me!" - it's always been "well at least I have something that fits me."  


It wasn't until I graduated from high school that I really began to gain more weight.  I am 5'7" and at the beginning of my senior year of high school I was around 175 lbs.  It sounds like a lot, and yes I obviously didn't look fit, but I didn't look or feel too horrible.  I carried my weight well.  Upon graduation (in 2007), my weight went up to 200 lbs.  200 POUNDS!  A number I thought I'd never see glare back up at me from the scale!


In September of 2007 I got a full time job at a natural grocery store.  Here is a place you'd think that you would lose weight so easily because everything around you is healthy.  Right? Well, not for me!  At first I did lose some weight, probably falling back down to the 180 lb range.  But soon enough my weight went back up again, this time not dropping down.


Currently I am at 230 lbs.  What.have.I.been.doing.with.my.life.  I still can't believe I am this heavy!  There is really no one to blame but myself for getting like this.  I never had anything really tragic happen in my life to make me gain this weight.  I've had my share of boy troubles and moved a couple of times.  I felt peer pressure in school and I've had my share of stress at work.  


I consider myself to be an over eater.  I wake up and eat something.  Go to work and eat something.  Come home and eat something. and snack.  then have dinner. then snack some more.  and of course have a bedtime snack.  All of which isn't carrot sticks and water.  I LOVE anything chocolate.  Anything sweet.  or salty.  Basically I will eat almost anything (except spicy) and it SHOWS.


I do not want to be this size anymore.  230 lbs.  Size 20 - 22 in jeans.  XL in shirts.  Almost a double chin.  No thanks.


So hopefully with the help of this blog and some other tools at my disposal, I will win my battle with weight loss once and for all.


If anyone has read this, thank you for reading, and I hope that if you are overweight too, I  may inspire you to take action with your life too!! LET'S DO THIS!